broken relationship

dear beloved bestfriend,

yesterday night my bestfriend text me. she told me that her boyfriend wanna break off with her. yeahh man, you play with her feeling. but it's okay for me because i knew you're not good for her. and i'll always be there for you my beloved bestfriend. if you need someone to talk, you can count on me :) one more thing, fall in love when you're ready not when you're lonely

the difference about like and love

I like that guy because he's cute, chubby and simple. yeahhh. misunderstanding? like and love different is it? thats normal when we like someone :)

forgive & forget

I would have been with you, and given you all of me..but it would have never worked. We would have never worked.. And even though i knew that, I stayed..and I still let you hurt me and love me at the same time. You told me you loved me, that you always would, and you would always hold a place in your heart for me, that I had made an impression there. And I said the same. But then why did you do the things you did? How can you hurt someone you love? Was I a fool to believe the easy words? Well then things happened. Things that changed things. I stayed and forgave you and looked past it. And now I'm here, with this new life, and a new place, and I'm in love with it. I'm in love with my new life. And I think of you and wonder if you think of me....knowing that the answer is you don't. Knowing that you have probably moved on and I don't cross your mind any more. So I will move on. I am moving on. I hold a place for you, that is filled with pain and love and forgiveness. I forgive you for hurting me and for not knowing that you did. I wish you the best.

-A-

he was my friend

he was my friend. that one person in my life that truly meant everything to me. i knew that no matter what i did or what i said, he always accepted me for who i was. he loved me no matter what and not just like a friend. i knew he had those kinds of feelings for me. i always had. we were both very open with how we felt about each other. i think that is what made our friendship so honest, deep and strong. during the school was started, we almost didn't see each other until now. i missed him more than anyone else. we already knew each other. it would be perfect and easy. he busy with his school and no time to texting each other. at the weekend, we finally texting each other again, i decided to tell him that i missed him so much. he would always be there for me, that he always would be my friend and that i could never lose him.

-N-

I'm always here!

it'll soon be 3 months after we've  broke up. how we meet was really a funny experience. i believe thet he was heaven sent, my guardian angel that was there to guide me along in life. is it weird to say that i feel in love with this guy just by merely chatting through fb and phone? actually, i'd couple with him twice time. we start the relationship in January and broke up in February. after we've broke up, we become friend. past 2 months, we return back to each other. i've never talked to him face to face before until we got together. 7th May 2011 is the first time we hung out. i spent my whole day messaging him. and i looked forward to every night because it'd be the time that he'd call and we talk till it was past midnight.


he was shy and was unwilling to say his feelings out to me directly. but he showed his feelings through his actions. how he took note of my feelings, the way that i spoke and the way i sounded through our text messages was remarkable and...stunning. it's like he could see right through me to the deepest of my heart and he understood how i felt without me saying a word. i remember everything since the day we were together till the day that things ended between us. i'll never forget how his hands hold my hands. how his smile make me smile. i remember begging him to stay after each time he left. sounds stupid but i never regretted it, because i'm happy of the fact that i once loved somebody this much, and to me, he was a very very very special person in my heart. it has been nearly 4 months now, and i've been single and not think too much about guy. why? is loving someone that difficult? or is it because i don't have the ability to love anymore? it sucks even more when i realize that i compare every guy that has interest in me to him, to the very fact that they're not him. and you know what the sad thing is? some of them might even be better than how he was, but i guess i'm never able to see that. because i'm afraid to fall in love again? or is it because i haven't really gotten over him? but i really do hope that he's doing well.


'hey you. be happy with life at Marudi no matter where you are okay. remember if you ever need someone to talk, you can always count on me. dont know if you still remember me, but know that i'm always here'


-N-